Thursday, October 3, 2013

the crazy one...

It's emergency hospital visits, watchfully sitting by her unconscious bed.
Phone calls: of an emotional young woman who is tired of roller coaster of feelings
trashing her room
"I hate this. Why do I have to be the crazy one?"
Angry, inexplicable fights with her older sister
"I love you SOO much, Mom!"
"I'm cleaning the whole house today!"

According to the DSM-5, 5 of 8 of these characterize her as Borderline Personality Disorder. I've seen all 9. At least 8.
1) frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment.
(2) a pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation
(3) identity disturbance: markedly and persistently unstable self image or sense of self
(4) impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g., spending, sex, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating)
(5) recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, or threats, or self-mutilating behavior
(6) affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days)
(7) chronic feelings of emptiness
(8) inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights)
(9) transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms

Seemingly mundane events may trigger symptoms. For example, people with borderline personality disorder may feel angry and distressed over minor separations—such as vacations, business trips, or sudden changes of plans—from people to whom they feel close. Studies show that people with this disorder may see anger in an emotionally neutral face5 and have a stronger reaction to words with negative meanings than people who do not have the disorder.6

It's her but it's not her. She's says she was lost to me a long time ago. She is wrong


From yesterday:
So the government shuts down and hundreds of thousands of federal employees go without a paycheck? Republicans are full of it and I'm tired of it but if they are going to shut the government down then I say they shouldn't get paid either. So,

(See the full post for the whole info on the petition)


  1. How exhausting for all concerned to live with that kind of personality disorder.

    And I fully agree - Congress are the first people who should go without their paycheck!

    1. I don't live with her. She's living on her own but it's still exhausting. I worry about her... a lot.

  2. That petition sure is getting heaps of signatures - mine was one of them. But I noticed what looked like repeated signings from the same person with the same message, so I guess they don't prevent people from doing multiple signings.

    Borderline personality disorder would be so sad for all involved, not just the sufferer. :(

    1. They must weed some of them out at the end which is why address is required- the same petition is sent out by different groups and individuals all over the place so it's difficult for people to know that it's the same one they already signed. They have to weed the dupes out somehow...

      BPD is difficult and I wouldn't blog on it normally but I am a little stressed right now so there it is...

  3. Hi, Danette,

    YOU NEED a CYBER HUG.... That must be very stressful for you. I'm sorry you have to go through it.

    As for CONGRESS.... I have a few CHOICE WORDS ....

    Keep breathing and sending calming vibes your way this weekend.


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